Starting my sit ups

So I'm getting back into doing tons of sit ups a day working on my beach bod 2012 . Well I started today and already pulled a muscle.  Didn't stretch good. But its ok.
I feel crappy today like I'm in my own world today. I almost feel like I'm not here like outside my body.

Well anyways. 30sit ups and 10 pelvic thrust lol

-ab

Aww

Buddy

Look at this cutie pie I love him

well your gay.

today was super lame

all i did was chill all morning then i went to work and work was totally sucked ass it was super slow but

the store was a giant mess. it felt like it took forever to clean

but it only took us 30 minutes after we closed so it wasn't too bad i guess.

we had a strong team tonight. then i came home and did nothing im such a boring person

i really need to get a car. I am also thinking about switching banks too. 

I have bank of america and i have never had a problem with them and i always liked them until now

and i think im just ready for a new bank idk..lol

but if i switch to this bank i am thinking about they will help with a car loan :)

so hopefully i can do that and hopefully i can get a car loan cause i really really need a freaking car

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so today..my mother let me know that lesbians are gross and doesn't think its right that

women should kiss or get married.

I was standing right next to her and i was like are you kidding me?..

mother you know I am gay right..?...

her words were  "well you wont have a good life" 

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!?!!?? 

so aggravating like are you freaking serious with me..you are just telling me now that being gay is gross

well i know she has said it before but i thought she was ok with it now ..guess not..dumb bitch

well im not changing i love my girlfriend very much 

and i want to be her wife 

its my life im going to live not her so she should just accept it.

so dumb..

Slacking

I'm going to try harder to blog. I didn't know if I liked the mobile app ..but I do.
-an

Melt downs

<p>Hello<br>
So let me just say not only did I have a melt down yesterday at work but I had one today. First let me tell you about yesterday ...
Well Friday is pay day for me so I check my bank account to see how much I got paid ..well I was negative ...n that made me upset then my mom was mad cause I couldn't pay her n well everything was just getting under my skin. Then I went to work..an sometimes it helps ..well this time it didn't so on my first 15 min break I just couldn't take it anymore I just started to ball my eyes out so horrible I just cried the whole time .. well then I realize I didn't take my Med.  So that was one reason one. So yea then I wipe my tears and went back to work. My girlfriend is the best she always makes me feel better. So I thought I was good then today came.
My mother is in this clean mode and well I still haven't gone thru the things I had with my x. Well I started to go thru it. Was doing ok I'm like oh its been like 3 years almost and I've moved on I should be ok. Was I wrong. All it took was one picture and I started to ball my eyes out. I don't love that person anymore but the memories I had with that picture was what was killing me. I think if things ended different with my x. I wouldn't have such a hard time with the memories I have with them.  But my girlfriend made me feel better I love her so much I would never trade her for anything.

I want to be her wife.

-ab

Day 1 back of crazy

Good morning. So my mother finally got home around 3am. While she was gone I kept the house very clean..well my brother Ben ..has already made a freaking mess and a sink full of dishes. Like are you serious just because our mother is home you think its ok to not clean up after yourself ..talk about aggravating.
So I'm just going to drink my coffee n watch the house fall apart again.

Mom still isnt home

So its 1:15 am and my mother was supposed to be home about an hour ago..still not I checked the flights but none of us remember what airline she took there is one delay but we have no idea if its hers. I just assume it is but it said it was going to be in at one. Hers was suppose to be in at 11:40.  So yeah I have no idea her phone and my aunts phone isn't on. Well just continue waiting.
I have work tomorrow at 2pm till 10pm then Thursday I have to get up for 6:45am stupid..
I have a massive headache right now probably cause I'm still awake. Hopefully she lands soon. Don't know how much longer I can stay up.
-ab

This is my first one

So This will be my first  blog and I'm excited cause I haven't blog in oh my a long long time :) So this will be short just cause I am still trying to figure this out.
-ab